happy!

I am so happy right now. I'm elated, over the moon, on TOP of the WORLD! I feel so intoxicated with this feeling of joy and I can't help holding a suppressed smile even as I walk- and I could even FEEL the springs in my steps! I could have probably powered 10 houses with the amount of energy I was holding.

Weird thing is, I don't even know why.

I mean, there was no one big thing that happened like someone coming up to me and saying: Alia, I'm going to donate RM 846.99 to your cause! or someone found the cure to AIDS and let me be the first person to know. Nope, nothing of the sort.

At first I thought that; some days, you just feel so tired and lazy and lethargic and you don't feel like doing anything at all- and just sleep. And perhaps this is one of those days where you feel just so energetic and ebullient and you feel like if the whole world were to weigh on your shoulders, you'd just shout: BRING IT ON! But I do hope the whole world will not come crashing down onto my little shoulders... That would be scary.

Anyway, when I think back over what happened today, I think it has got to be the little things which accumulated to this delight.

I woke up later than I wanted- I hadn't even looked through my topic for the day and SHOULD be worrying. Instead I was smiling as I got ready and was even calm when I had my breakfast. Looked through the slides for today and managed to magically conjure up the mindmap for the morning's topic- Immunology. Mind you, immunology has got to be one of the most headache-inducing topics. There are just SO many microscopic heroes in your body and having their own little yet amazing ways of saving your life.

I could actually follow the lessons so I felt really happy about that. Alina showed me (or rather twirled and modeled infront of me) her EXTREMELY impressively self-sewn baju kurung. I am still in awe of her skills and the masterpiece she has come up with:) Never knew you could do something like that, Ina. At the same time, I'm not surprised you've come up with it;) Consider lahh to make one for your dear Alia:P

Anyway, for some reason during the second class I started feeling extremely jittery and was quite shaky from hunger; which was really strange because sometimes even when I don't have my breakfast, I wouldn't feel that hungry. So I had to have lunch- alone. At first I was a bit down because I hate having lunch alone; but I found it as an opportunity to craft my speech for the ISC (international Speech contest) which would be held THIS Saturday. At first I was stuck staring a lot into space. I texted Ahmad: Crafting my speech. Stuck. He replied: Same. That did not help. I was hoping that him finishing off his speech would immediately boost my mental state into writing up a speech as well!

Anyway, after I finished my meal and mentally replayed Dwayne Smith's (he's the champion for the ISC in 2002) speech, my mind just clicked! I mean, his speech was so simple that I was able to follow the contents AND recall what he was talking about. So it got me writing furiously and adding the empty spaces. I texted Ahmad again and gloated: I got my outline!! He replied: :'( gonna find inspiration by eating. Lol.

In the computer lab, I was so excited that I typed so fast that Aki asked: Alia, what on EARTH are you doing typing so fast?!?!

I wrote my speech all in one go- but of course would need refining. I mean, after 5 months of incubating and thinking up of a good speech, I finally found one 5 days before the competition.

Nothing could dampen my spirit. I mean, I was practically on air. Even when Prof Hamdan walked by me and said; "Ummm you're Najah is it?" I laughed and said: I'm Alia:) funny, he always calls Najah as Najwa and when he sees me will call me Najah.

I met two kids on the bus and smiled at THEM too. They must think I'm weird. Haha. When I wanted to get off the bus, a gentleman was at the doorway and he politely gestured me to exit first. When I was walking the guards shouted "Panas laa!" and offered me to use their bicycle. I'm not so sure if they were serious or not- considering I was in a skirt. But they didn't use some kind of disgusting flirtatious tone so I just smiled and thanked them for the offer. And walked back home.

I must find the cause of this intrinsic happiness so I can bring it out again during my time of utter despair and extreme depression. Maybe I've found inner peace. Or maybe I was ignorant- it is after all -sometimes- bliss.

Ah, whatever it is, let it be. I'm enjoying the day as it is. It's only been half the day. Hopefully the best have yet to come:)