Words...

Some things are better left unsaid.

When I think about it, sometimes I'm not so sure whether to have a situation explained or it's better to just keep quiet. I wonder what actually matters the most... Is it that the other person doesn't get hurt? Is it that you convey what's inside you? More than often, the situation varies; and in the end, you just follow what's in your heart because there is almost never a correct answer. Or at least I think so.

There is a past in everyone's lives they rather not look at. I've always told myself to be brave and face it. For some reason, I've survived it these past few years. I don't understand why suddenly now I can't face it anymore; I feel like it's so useless to figure it out. All those times I thought of ways to talk it out, took action to understand, endured it when it hurt. And now suddenly when it's so easy to solve it, I just feel so tired of everything, I feel like running away from it. Ahaha. Life is kinda funny that way. It's that your goal is RIGHT at the corner after the most difficult obstacle or when you want to give up.

Once my mom gave this really inspiring speech, I remembered this one point the most: Do you want to win or be happy?
As much as all my thoughts is that I can keep this up so I can win, I still think that the most important thing is be happy. One day when I look back at this, I don't want to regret I took the wrong decision. In this case, there IS a wrong decision. Why not just go for it? I won't lose. No one loses if I decide to talk it out.

In the end, I think in a friendship, you just don't have to win all the time. It's better to say you were wrong eventhough it wasn't your fault. Ahaha.

~nadhirah
ten forty two post meridiem
twenty first january two thousand eight