25 things

i got tagged twice to write about the 25 random things about me on facebook. I'm quite uncomfortable with facebook so I'd prefer to write it on my blog:) I'm not gonna tag others but perhaps just felt knowing if there really are 25 random things about me.

1. I like being random. Sometimes:)
2. I cringe when things are unorganized and unsystematic. Especially when it comes to information and data.
3. Lactose intolerant.
4. I like sleeping with a pillow on my head. Or at least something; like a teddy bear.
5. I keep forgetting to keep my phone near me these days. and usually its on silent.
   
6. I love letters (i've never emphasized on this enough:P)
7. Even small surprises or a short note on encouragement or how much they love me; means a lot to me:D
8. I don't like it when events aren't on time. Like start late and finish late. Even by a minute. It gets on my nerves.
9. I'm doing a "Keep up spirit of volunteerism" lifelong campaign.
10. I cant believe im saying this but i actually like chemistry.
11. Slacks and long blouse are my favourite.
12. My parents are my number 1 inspiration.
13. I talk to my dad nonstop.
14. Hanging out with friends, i like.
15. Soft toys make me squeal with delight.
16. I like public speaking!:D but not when it's impromptu.
17. I like conversing with older people. Though i'm not that good at interacting with them..
18. I'm in awe of student leaders:)
19. I'd only marry after i receive my degree. lol.
20. I'm working on trying to be more efficient and developing critical thinking skills.
    
21. I like sushi!:D Please treat me to Teriyaki!>_<
22. I tend to overanalyze people when they speak upfront. Perhaps because I've been going to toastmasters too much and listening to the evaluations.
23. I like novels but im trying to broaden my reading material. Richard Hoy told me to read books on philosophy and life. Now searching for The Last Lecture by Paul Rausch.
24. I like making/drawing/creating things for people. Because I like to see the smile on their face:) I like to see people smiling:)
25. I'm happy^^
    

f.h.t.t.o

Wednesday we were having physics experiment. Just seconds before we entered the lab, *BAM!* I suddenly realized I forgot to bring my lab coat. I thought; why not borrow from someone who has a lab coat but then everyone who had lab today had already gone home. I was dreading no no no this is like the beginning of my history of being so undisciplined and probably everyone will be wearing a lab coat and I'd be the only one looking so unprofessional and not abiding by the rules and regulations of the college and not following the safety precautions of conducting an experiment. Okay, it got a bit dramatic there but still! I guess I just couldn't do anything about it... Besides, physics is still okay because we're not dealing with any chemical solutions or anything. Hopefully my lab instructor would be a bit lenient on me...

So then we entered and it was kind of hot in the lab and we realized that the aircond had broken down. Everyone was wearing their lab coat and when the instructor entered, he was like "Tolong on the aircond" But we all said that it's broken down. I was like: yes yes tak payah pakai lab coat.

And then he said that's only on the other side but some can be switched on. And I was like no no no.

And then azra tried to switch it on but it didn't (yes yes yes).

But finally, it was able to be switched on (no no no).

But since it wasn't all the airconds that can be switched on, our lab instructor finally said "Panasnye. Kalau taknak, tak payahlah pakai lab coat."

I was like.. o_O am i dreaming? So then everyone also took off their labcoats. If I DID have my labcoat, I would have worn it. Lol.

But yeah, Alhamdulillah:) funny how things turned out^^

technicalities

"Most of them had their seeds grown to amazingly enormous, stunning and colourful plants."
- taken from previous post, Speech # 2

okay, this is for the dude who is challenging my credibility of a logical story:P
Saying that how would the young men know what plants to grow if the seeds were dead; here's my answer to you:

First of all, it's a folktale. Nobody asks logical questions. And we don't really live in a world where a kingdom is given to someone who doesn't grow or germinate a seed.

Or probably the young men inspected the seeds and made research about them and realised what kind of seed it is. I mean, of course it would be a seed that they know and they can grow in their climate kan? And if they want the throne so much, probably they'd work really hard to know what kind of a seed it is.
And the reason for the variety of plants is probably because some other young men wasn't clever enough to go and research what type of plant it is. Or maybe they speculated that maybe the king just wants to see some really awesome plants:D

So there you go:) But the main point of the story is to take the moral. If you take things too technical, how do you enjoy the message?:P

For example there's this quote: "Reach for the stars" and if people look at it in a technical manner, you'd say how can u reach the stars? You need money to take the rocket and time to train as an astronaut and stuffs like that. Learn to accept some things without thinking about it too much:P But of course, there's nothing wrong with thinking about something so much; so as to ensure a sorta logical story.

Thanks for your feedback:) I'll remember it for sure^^

speech #2

It's really so funny when I recall back the comments I received this morning. Someone came up to me and asked me if I'm really serious in becoming a doctor. Because being a doctor is like all clinical stuff and being able to speak so well like this may not necessarily be fit for a doctor. Well, it was something to that effect. But he said that maybe right now being a doctor is what I want but in the future, I might change my mind lol.

Iman, perhaps it might not sound interesting here. You have to watch it be given as a speech because it's all about the dramatization effects that gives it impact. I must thank you iman azman, for having made me more of a drama queen. But no worries, you'll always be the ultimate drama queen;)

For my second speech, the requirements were basically to have an organized speech with a flow that the audience can follow.

Speech # 2: ORGANIZE YOUR SPEECH

The Truth about Lies

A 5 year-old curious boy once asked his father, “Dad, do parents lie?” (pause) A deafening silence and you guess..is it a YES or NO? For most of the parents here, what do you think would the answer be? Later when his wife asked “Dear, what did you say to him?” The father admitted, “I lied and said parents don’t lie.”

Good morning ladies and gentlemen, fellow Toastmasters and distinguished guests.

ALL RISE.(everyone stands up) Raise your right hand and repeat after me. I SHALL SPEAK THE TRUTH, THE WHOLE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH. You may be seated.

Now you are under oath. Tell me, have you ever told a lie? If you deny, you are lying. Lies range from the serious extreme end of perjury to the mildest white lies. Whether it is fabrication, prevarication, bluffing, misleading, exaggeration: They are all lies.

Remember the story of The Boy Who Cried Wolf?(pause) Or Pinnochio? (pause) What do these stories have in common? In the end, they always have a price to pay. (pause)

Which leads to the purpose of my speech today; that is lying will always have its consequences; whether desirable or not.

Now, to simplify things and know some truth about lies, we can generally classify lies into three: Small lies, necessary lies and big lies.

Small lies: Firstly, small lies are told for convenience and comfort, to smooth things over for others as much as for ourselves.

The common example: “You okay?” “Yeah, I’m okay” “How are things?” “Yeah, thing’s are good.” Even though you’re not okay, even though things aren’t good.

Consequence: Perhaps it does not affect very much; since it may just be temporary. But be careful; because small small lies can eventually accumulate into something big. And it may even result to a habitual norm. Just like in the movie of Liar Liar.

Necessary lies: Secondly, we come to necessary lies. A necessary lie is a fabrication told only under absolutely essential conditions. We tell necessary lies when the need arise and it is usually for noble reasons.

Have you heard of the Lies a loving mother tells? A boy shares the story of his family’s poor conditions: When there was not enough food, my mother would say she is not hungry. When she had been struggling the whole day, she would say she is not tired. Mothers, does this sound familiar to you?

Consequence: With the righteous intentions behind necessary lies, there may not be desired outcomes initially; but one way or another, will lead to something good coming out of it. The boy became a successful and hardworking man. He learned the meaning of compassion. The boy lived a fulfilling life through his mother’s lies.

Big lies: And thirdly, we now move on to big lies. The term big lies can be defined depending on how you look at it. It can be called a big lie if it is downright obvious and clearly outrageous. Or, are told which can ultimately lead to large scale consequences. It can cause disintegration of families, breakdown of society, collapse of a government and even fall of a nation.

In India, Satyam, an electronics company claimed to have millions and profiting but actually, they were making large losses.

Consequence: What happened? The chairman resigned his post. Several executives were arrested. Most of the clients take back their services from the company. Almost 25000 people go jobless. These are the consequences of a big lie. You can lie to someone all the time. You can lie to everyone for some time. But you cannot lie to everyone all the time.

There once was a wise and revered king who was searching for a successor; so he requested for all the best young man in his Kingdom. Hundreds of young men gathered at his palace. The king came and gave a seed to each of the young men and told them to come back next month with the plants they have grown with these seeds.

After one month, they all came back with the plants. Most of them had all ten seeds grown to amazingly enormous, stunning and colourful plants. The King went to each plant and inspected them very carefully. Finally he reached the young man at the end of the row where a young man stood, empty handed.

The man said, “Your Highness, I did try but for the seeds did not germinate or grow.”

The King smiled at him and announced, “He is the new King. I wanted an honest man to rule my kingdom. I had boiled and killed the seeds before giving it to you all, so that they do not germinate and grow at all.” The other young men did not get the throne because they had lied.

The truth about lies is that, regardless of our intentions, there will always be consequences; whether desirable or undesirable. At the end of the day, we must be aware of the outcome and be accountable for our actions. To admit the truth can be difficult. But the rewards far outweigh the risks.

So the next time a child comes up to you and asks; Do parents lie?

Remember; Telling lies may be easy; but telling truths will set you free.

Truth about Lies

Finally! Have finished giving my second Toastmaster's speech. Alina came along as well since I've 'convinced' her to come. It was super fun since she came. My support group has grown. Thanks, dear;) I shall pull more people into Toastmasters! Mwahahahaha.

Anyway, I've had the topic on my mind for a month and started writing it just last week. I wanted to fine tune it and edit things out so i can practice it a week before giving the speech. But there were assignments and reports and I was so scared because at the end of the day, I flopped on my bed and didn't manage to practice at all. I took a look at my written speech in between classes and during little breaks just so that I have a clear flow. And as saturday crept closer and closer, the anxiety started building up and I realized that I only have friday night to practice it.

So last night I talked to my mentor and he gave me pointers on how to make it more engaging and impactful and I finally got the flow and could connect from one idea to another. I think I had to edit about 30% of my speech last minute. When I prepared and practiced at 12am, i was stuttering and forgetting my lines and I thought "can i really give this speech tomorrow?" I cannot speak upfront if I don't think i can give my best. My mom always reminds me that when you speak upfront, people listen because you have something to say. And if you just talk about some nonsense, for one person; u wasted 5 minutes. but what if there are 50 people? You've wasted 5X50 minutes = 250 minutes! of people's time!

But my dad says it's perfectly normal to want to give your best. and feeling anxious, it's absolutely okay.

So I managed to go through my second speech; entitled "Truth about Lies". And as always, it felt so good after that. People came up to me and congratulated me for giving a really good speech. Daniel Teh said some things need to be tweaked a little and my conclusion can be delivered more impactful so as to send the message across because at the end of the day, you want the audience to leave the room remembering YOUR message. He even said that I should join the speech contest; but I think perhaps i'm too new and still need a lot of practice.

I finally got to slow down a bit and inject a few pauses at the right places. But people say I need to pause more and slow down more. So, there's my objective for the next speech. And also, people are saying that my voice is low. Is it really soft? I always thought my voice has always been projected out; up to the extent when I was inquiring the lab instructor about something, suddenly the whole class turned quiet like I'm giving some kind of a speech. Lol.

As always, learnt a lot of things. I especially enjoyed this speech about "Happiness is a choice."
The speaker said that; being happy is having someone to love, having something to look forward to and having something to do.

And now I have fallen in love, I have projects I am looking forward to and right now have assignments to do. Ahh, contented I am:)

wings

Drew this upon inspiration by the song iman posted in her blog; beautiful flower.

These past few days haven't really been myself. To be truthful, it's been one of the most emotionally tiring week (eventhough the week has yet to end). But because of the many quizzes and tests and projects and presentations and sudden nomination of a post, had to quickly buckle up and get over all of it asap. Now my housemates think I have gone insane with a contagious crazy syndrome; but thanks to them, I'm able to keep my mind of things. I'll keep being crazy if that's what helps. Anyways, they say I'm so crazy; to the extent it's normal. Aren't they sweet:)

After (continuously) listening to the song, suddenly felt this strong feeling of just... going all out. Do all the crazy (crazy like crazier than my norm) things I've never thought I'd do. Dare myself to go over the limit. Take the bull by the horns. Make all the mistakes I need to. Learn to live a meaningful life.

Time to spread my wings:)

equilibrium point

if you think about it, all things on earth generally wants to reach stability.

Chemistry: Thermochemistry first basic thing to know is that chemical reactions occur so that they can achieve stability.

Biology: Homeostatis; In order to maintain internal body STABILITY, the body and all organs work out the negative feedback just to get the body normal again.

Physics: Simple Harmonic Motion; an object springs back and forth in order to get back to its equilibrium point.

It's crazy when you think about it; all things on earth wishes to reach stability. Perhaps the same goes for me right now... One day I've been erratic and out-of-mind and the next I've been so quiet deep in thoughts and on and on and on; i think my housemates are wondering what's wrong with me. *smiles*

Imagine a graph of damped harmonic motion... except for its my mood against time. My life is a bit like that at the moment, still fluctuating wildly up and down; but getting somewhere closer and closer to equilibrium point.